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Thoughts, not only about class
Ack. I'm somewhat in crisis mode right now, so forgive me if I only give a basic overview of class today. I've other, more important things I want to discuss.
Now, on to the stuff that's actually concerning me. See, I'm looking at all the seminary applications, and I'm encountering a problem. Seminary isn't like undergraduate school, where you can come in as "open option" and figure it out after you've been there a while and have a better idea of what's going on. You have to know what degree you want when you apply, so you can apply to that program. And that means I need to know whether I want an M.Div or a Th.M. or a MA in Theology or whatever else, and I need to know it, hmm, yesterday. But I just don't have a clue.
So my next thought is, well, I could take a semester off to figure that out, get some work experience, not be in school for a while, that sounds rather nice. But I don't know what the heck I'd do for that semester. I mean, I know I want to get an internship with a Christian publishing organization over the summer. But would that last through till January of 09? Would I be able to get a job with them after it ended, if it doesn't last, and stay those extra few months? I don't know, but I'm not ready to start the application process for Seminary yet, and that's really scary and really frustrating. Princeton's application is due on Friday. I started it, yes, but for the M.Div program, and I'm not sure I want an M.Div, and I'm really not sure I want to go to New Jersey, and I'm really really not sure I want to jump headlong into even more school. Sigh. So I don't know what I want or what I'm going to do to get it, and I'm something of a big conflicted mess right now.
And that means it's time to go pray, and see if I can talk to Andrew again, and talk to other people, and write about it more after all that, and we'll see what decisions I come to. I don't know where this is going to lead me. I do know that God is in control, so no matter what happens he'll take care of me. And, really, with that knowledge in hand, I have the courage to step out and do what needs to be done... once I figure out what that is. But it's ok. God's got me covered, and he's not going to let me down.
-Jaya-
mehNow, on to the stuff that's actually concerning me. See, I'm looking at all the seminary applications, and I'm encountering a problem. Seminary isn't like undergraduate school, where you can come in as "open option" and figure it out after you've been there a while and have a better idea of what's going on. You have to know what degree you want when you apply, so you can apply to that program. And that means I need to know whether I want an M.Div or a Th.M. or a MA in Theology or whatever else, and I need to know it, hmm, yesterday. But I just don't have a clue.
So my next thought is, well, I could take a semester off to figure that out, get some work experience, not be in school for a while, that sounds rather nice. But I don't know what the heck I'd do for that semester. I mean, I know I want to get an internship with a Christian publishing organization over the summer. But would that last through till January of 09? Would I be able to get a job with them after it ended, if it doesn't last, and stay those extra few months? I don't know, but I'm not ready to start the application process for Seminary yet, and that's really scary and really frustrating. Princeton's application is due on Friday. I started it, yes, but for the M.Div program, and I'm not sure I want an M.Div, and I'm really not sure I want to go to New Jersey, and I'm really really not sure I want to jump headlong into even more school. Sigh. So I don't know what I want or what I'm going to do to get it, and I'm something of a big conflicted mess right now.
And that means it's time to go pray, and see if I can talk to Andrew again, and talk to other people, and write about it more after all that, and we'll see what decisions I come to. I don't know where this is going to lead me. I do know that God is in control, so no matter what happens he'll take care of me. And, really, with that knowledge in hand, I have the courage to step out and do what needs to be done... once I figure out what that is. But it's ok. God's got me covered, and he's not going to let me down.
-Jaya-