Jots and Tittles

Why must it hurt? Why? The one good thing about back when I used to bleed for three weeks straight was that at least I didn't get cramps. I might have lost tons of blood and bordered on anemia for most of the month, but at least it didn't freaking hurt.  Of course, I shouldn't complain; if I had kept going down that path I may very well have been dead by now.  And as awesome as that would have been (hey, heaven is going to be AWESOME!  I can hardly wait!), I'm kind of glad that I'm still alive.  There's still a lot I want to do.  Of course, having kids is on that list, and who knows whether I can do that or not?  The doctor isn't even sure about that.  So who knows?  But God has worked that miracle before. =D 

Oh, hey, and I came up with a joke about it!  It's bordering on blasphemy, but... meh, God has a sense of humor, too.  For those of you who don't know, this summer the PC(USA) toyed with the idea of expanding their image of the Holy Trinity (which should be "Father, Son and Holy Spirit," mind you)  to include, among other things, "Mother, Child and Womb."  That's ridiculous enough, but I was sitting there thinking about how much cramps suck, and suddenly it popped into my mind: "My Holy Spirit hurts!"  Which threw me into laughter and made me forget about the cramps, which I suppose is a good thing, but they came back eventually, which is sad. :(

Sigh.  So, having no ink and no paper (well, I have ink somewhere, I just don't know where and since I have no paper it doesn't really matter anyway), I've pretty much given up on homework.  I did all I could of what's due tomorrow.  And while I really, really should write my paper for Lit Crit, I just don't care.  Not that I would know where to start even if I did care, but that's beside the point. 

All I really want to do right now is curl up with Ashley's heating pad, but if I don't make it look like I'm working, Latonya won't stop talking to me.  Not that it stops her talking to me when I'm sitting here working (or pretending to work), but it makes her talk less.  And that's a good thing, especially now when I'm SO not in the mood to talk about her Snape costume (though it IS rather awesome...) or Lord of the Rings or WOW or Anime.  And I think I just now realize what an incredibly geeky geek she is.  Holy flying monkeys, all you need is to get rid of the contacts and get some buggy glasses, hitch up your pants and start talking in a more nasal voice, and you'll be set!  Good grief!

I'm sorry, I'm kind of bitchy when I'm cramping. :(  I can only imagine how the poor NaNoers must have thought of me last night, because I tried to be cheery but when the pain got worse, I got worse.  I did try to just shut up when that happened, instead of opening my mouth and making more of a bitch of myself, but I can't tell you how well that succeeded.  And poor Troy and DJ, I'm sure it only got worse as the night went on, so I got quieter and more cringe-y all night.  It was a good thing we watched the MST movie, because then I could laugh and laughing somehow made the pain less painful.  If that makes any sense.  >.>  At least I spared him tonight, and hopefully tomorrow night I'll be way less bitchy and I can enjoy the Halloween shindig at the Source without having to disguise the pain.

So.  Random change of subject.  My computer will, on occasion, randomly shut off.  Now, I don't mean that it goes to the blue screen of DOOM or goes through the Windows shut-down procedure or anything like that, because it doesn't.  One second it's on, and the next it's off.  It's the most annoying thing ever.  The fan is usually running its little heart out when this happens (though just because the fan comes on doesn't mean the compy will die) so I think it's overheating.  But I got that cooling pad for it, and it doesn't seem to help.  I really don't know what else to do.  I guess I'll have to take it in somewhere, but  there are a couple of problems with that.  One, I'm pretty sure the warranty has expired and it's going to be freaking EXPENSIVE to fix, and I don't know if I can afford that.  Two, I NEED my computer!  Half of my classes have huge online components, and everything must be typed in all my classes.  Not to mention that I'm doing NaNo--a computer is essential.  So I won't be able to get my compy in until December, at the earliest.  Who knows what could happen before then?  BOO! :(

Sigh.  Perhaps I should stop wasting your time with my complaints.  I'm sure you all have better things to do, and this is just a mood.  It'll pass, probably about the same time this pain passes.  Funny how those things work.  :-p  Maybe I'll go work on your artwork.  I might finally have an idea of what to make for Troy.  Maybe.  It depends on what I have up here in Fort Collins... oh, crap, and I don't have paper.  Hmmm, that might not work.

Oh!  Happy thing!  Just so I don't end on a miserable note: I was talking to my adviser, and he pulled out me SMART form (when did I become a pirate?) and looked at my name.  "Brittany Kay," he said as he handed it to me.  "What a beautiful name!"  And the way he said it, it really was beautiful, because he knows how to pronounce it properly (heck, I don't even pronounce my own name properly most of the time) and he used his Shakespeare accent, which is spiffy.  I haven't though of my name as beautiful in... well, actually, I've never thought of my name as beautiful, because everybody and her grandmother is named Brittany somebody or other.  And Mom thought it was an original name!  Bah!   But she also thought it was a beautiful name, which I never did until he said it.  And you know what?  It kind of is!  Brittany Kay... at any rate, it rolls off the tongue rather nicely.  So anyway, that little compliment totally made me happy, and it was good.  =D

-Jaya-